Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder
Sunday, 1 March 2009
I always try to call home using Skype at least once a week. Usually on a Saturday night for me, just coz I don't have work at that time. My classes are in the morning and I work at night most of my shift except Saturdays when I come in at noon. Saturday nights for me means Sunday morning for those in Malaysia. First, I'd call home and talk to my dad (mom is at church but I do talk to her on other days too), then I'd call my paternal grandparents and finally to my maternal grandparents. It's sad that I usually wouldn't be able to my paternal grandparents for long since their hearing isn't good anymore. I'd always feel dehydrated after talking over the phone with them but it's still worth it. Yesterday, after I'm done talking to my maternal grandparents, I realized that we've been taking for half an hour already and I don't think I've ever in my life sat down and talk to them face to face for half an hour before - and I did it over the phone. I guess the saying Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder, is true- in a way. I miss my parents and my grandparents and being away makes me appreciate them better.
My paternal grandfather would always be hoping for me to come back from USA and stay in Malaysia. But I'm really torn in this decision and don't want to decide anytime soon. I really want to stay here in USA in the future to work after my studies but apart of me wants to go back and be with my family. I guess, I'd just have to pick a side when it comes to the end.
Sometimes, it's not only that I miss my family but there are times when I would feel emotionally down like last Chinese New Year. There's nothing here that reminds me of CNY other than calling back to my parents and grandparents on Skype wishing them HAPPY CNY when I'm here alone not being able to celebrate CNY at all. Maybe it's a big deal for me because it's my first time not spending CNY with the family. I always find CNY, above other festivals, the most important time in the year, partly because I get ang pau-s on that day :p Then again, it's about family bonding, spending time with the grandparents and far relatives that I only get to see once a year (which means I get more ang pau-s. hehe... )Damn, I'm just feeling melancholic. But it'd get better since I'm going shopping with Cam's mom later. Yay! I guess she reminds me of my mom.
I miss you, daddy and mummy.
posted @ 11:37,
