Follow your heart, Listen to your mind.
Sunday, 9 November 2008
Honestly, I've thought about it for some time and still find it hard to put my feelings down into words. If only it is that easy to express out what am going through. Seriously, last Summer spent in USA did me good in some way. Looking back at the things I went through before and expereince when I was in USA, and finally coming back to Malaysia to confirm that I would be going back by the end of this year to study at Western Michigan University, it really got me appreciating Malaysia more and more as day pass.
I remember when I first went there for Summer, there was no sadness, no regrets and no feeling of missing anyone and no holding back. I went for it- to the max, had fun, experience the freedom, happiness and responsibilities that comes with it. For once in my life, I thought I am happy, I was persistent and determine to go back. I felt as though that USA was the place for me. I felt accepted in a foreign land, which is strange, in a way.
Anyway, after coming back from USA and confirming that I'd head back there very soon, it made me thought a lil bit more about my feelings for the country I've spend my entire life in and the people that are here. As much as I'm extreamly excited to go back there, I'm starting to feel that I'd miss this place a lot along with those people that means a lot to me, more that I think I will. Something that I never thought I would. I guess having to fly back there so soon got me to realize my feelings clearer, somehow, the things that I thought I had always wanted, was not and vice versa, in some case. It’s weird. Sometimes life suprise you by throwing these kind of things in your way. I guess certain things have to happen for you to realize what you want in life and what is important to you.
I’ve decided and at least, I’d know that I’d not regreat this decision I made in my life to go back to USA.
My mom once told me: “Dear, I know you have big dreams and I will see you through it as much as long as I'm able and capable to.”
I replied "I know, thanks mom."
Labels: Family, Friend, Life, Love, USA
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