A hundred days and more.
Wednesday, 22 October 2008
Bellatrix Black
Year 4 - Beginning of Nov
She close her eyes and take a deep breath. Count to ten slowly in her head and open her eyes. Her long thick, shining hair covered part of her face as she shove it behind. A lot of things is running through her mind now and she has no control over sorting out the mess. She is just under so much pressure and stress lately sometimes she gets lost in transaction. There were decisions that she had to make which would determined her future and people around her, there were outcomes that she had to consider about which would affect the people around her and she is running out of time.
And... and, Christmas. The thought of meeting Jack seems so distant. Christmas might not happen for all she knows and hopes. Considering the current situation, there is a very slim chance she might see Jack again, or at least any time soon. Unhappy is an understatement in this situation and so is disappointment.
Sometimes, she feels as though she is so sick and tired of everything that is happening around her. Wishing that she is now standing at the end of this particular race. For once, she felt like putting the Cruciatus Curse on herself to feel better. She could imagine the spell working on her inside her brain..."Crucio!"
She stare blankly at the cup of water in front of her as she pull out the last letter Jack had written to her. Rereads it again as a tear is nearly seen in her eyes. At that point, she feels like slapping herself, "Bellatrix Black, this isn't you. The Bellatrix Black. Pick yourself up and face it like a Black." She swallow hard and place the letter back into her coat. Winter is approaching and for some reason, she is not looking forward for it as much as she did, before today.
The younger Lestrange is sitting across her, as usual, he is always there for her but it never seem as though she realizes how much he cares for her, sometimes he feels invisible. He did not do much but just look at her puzzled expression, not knowing what to do. Bella had not been talking much and also been acting extremely agitated lately. The thing is, she wasn't telling what the matter was. He is worried about her. Maybe he could help? Maybe not.
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